It happened sometime in 2008. I’m embarrassed to say I did not document the exact day, but something happened that year that would change my life forever. I was married at the time, had two grown children, a good job, and a beautiful home on two acres. Yet somehow, I felt unfulfilled, empty, lost, like something was missing. I couldn’t explain it, but I felt it. I simply wasn’t content. So, one night, I thought I’d try going to an evening service at a nearby church. I was raised going to church as a child, but had slowly drifted away. I chose this particular church because of the name, New Hope, and because it was quite large and I knew I could get lost in the crowd and not be noticed. I sat high in the balcony and listened to the sermon attentively. Toward the end, the pastor asked everyone to close their eyes and bow their heads, and then invited anyone who wanted to ask Jesus to come into their hearts to simply raise their hand. He said all heads would be bowed so no one would know except you and God.

Something inside of me knew I needed to do this, so I slowly raised my hand as tears began to well and fall from my eyes. I didn’t know why I was crying, but I couldn’t help it. The tears just kept coming. Then, suddenly I felt someone behind me gently touch my shoulder and ask if it would be okay if she prayed for me. I said yes, and she then whispered that her name was Joyce. Well, when I heard that name, I really started crying, I mean really crying, complete with heaving shoulders and uncontrollable sobbing. Joyce just happened to be my deceased mother’s name and she had always wanted me to invite Jesus to come into my heart.

The tears just kept coming uncontrollably as she prayed for me. It was as if a lifetime of held-back feelings could suddenly be released. There was a flood of emotions that seemed to flow out of me all at the same time…long-held grief, pain, guilt, unworthiness, sorrow, and emptiness – all those emotions that we try to push down and keep hidden.

Then, out of nowhere the most beautiful calm came over me. I cannot put it into words. It was as if a warm healing balm had been poured over me from head to toe. I somehow felt washed in it, completely comforted, peaceful, accepted, unconditionally loved and no longer empty. There was an unexplainable peace and calm that wasn’t there before. Mostly, it was an inexpressible feeling of love and acceptance.

That was the beginning of opening the door for God to come into my life. He had plans for me in the coming years. Big plans! It was a slow, gentle beginning, but I soon started hearing words, seeing visions, and dreaming dreams. There were also miracles and supernatural events to come – even visits from angels! (See Supernatural.)

Was it simply a coincidence that the woman’s name that night was Joyce? I think not. My mother was a strong believer and always wanted me to believe and be baptized. She did not see it in her lifetime, but I would indeed finally become a believer – and even get baptized. God really started moving in my life after getting baptized! I had no idea why all these things were coming to me, but I knew it was for a purpose, and that I was to record it, and someday share it.

This is that someday – For Such a Time as This. (See Messages 2017.)

“Behold, I stand at the door and knock:

if anyone hears my voice, and opens the door, I will come in…”

Revelation 3:20